Erfra, We don't give up on our own.
Big ole hug.
We are trying to lift you up. I understand that this is not an easy thing to let go of but it not healthy the way you are feeling. You are doing so good in your sobriety but it takes a lot of time to heal. Relationships can muddle ones thinking sometimes. Take care of just you for now. You are so worth it. Tomorrows will be better. Have patience. Keep doing what you're doing............. meetings, counseling, coming here. We are with you!