Day 9 over here.
My body had me up at 4:17 this morning. I tried falling back asleep and couldn't. Then DH's alarm went off at 5:00 and he snoozed for an hour. Then I finally fell asleep and woke up to a screaming 4 year old, pounding at the window because he forgot to tell DH something before he left for work.
He has been going through a lot since we moved here in October. I though he was getting better but these last 2 mornings have been terrible. He pounds the window, hits me, screams. I have a very hard time not getting angry at him and I feel like I am bordering on verbal abuse at times. I am much less angrier than I was when I was drinking, but still, I can't stop yelling when I am woken up to that type of madness and of course, his yelling woke up my 16 month old which only make me even more furious.
Everyone is calm now but of course I am left with regret. I just want to get a hold of my anger and I don't know how.
I wish I had just gotten up at 4.