Before I relapsed I had 4 sponsor. Now I only have 1 of the 4. 1 moved, 1 is using, 1 wont talk to me along with the one that moved wont talk to me aswell. He is a truck driver. 13 years sober, relapsed and has another 13 years under his belt despite his month relapse would be 26 years. He sponsors people with 35 years sobriety anywhere between. He sponsors me because he can relate to my story. He wants me to write 30 things im powerless about , 30 things unmanageable, and definitions of powerless and unmanageable. when i do that he says Ill have done 3 steps. I have yet to start. I talk to him every other day. Hes a talker. Unless I am in dire need he talks about how great his life is which makes me hesitate to talk. Hes a good guy. He helps at some things. He tries to find me every 4 or so days because he knows Im pretty suicidal. He tolerates me tho so thats all i can ask.