Welcome to SR, badnews!
Keep posting and let us know whats goingon in your life. We're here to lend a 'cybere-ear' and support. there are a ton of resources on this site, maybe we can offer you some 'goodnews'..
Read through some of our recovery stories. the first step is admitting you have a problem, which you have done, now keep going in the right direction.
Tell us a little more about yourself, there are probably others who have been/are in similar situations who can give more specific advice.
Much Love: SS