When I look back now, my life was so boring as a drunk. There was no growth, no challenge, no achievement. I was confined to my house for twenty hours a day, couldn't drive, couldn't be seen in public. Day after day after dreary miserable day, nothing but shame and guilt and depression and anxiety.
Once I understood that was all behind me, forever, my life opened up again. I quit drinking, so that meant I could achieve pretty much anything I might set my mind to. The first thing I did was begin to say yes to all the opportunities that seemed to present themselves when I decided I was ready. Many of them were things I had simply abandoned, hobbies, skills, things that allowed me to make changes, and create new stuff.
For me, this is where happiness lies, where true freedom, peace and joy are found. Try saying yes as a default, and see what happens. I bet you will like it!