But I wanna say, that's OK!!
Turns out, every day sober isn't a great big party.
We don't always feel good.
Emotions happen, they come and they go in various forms and shapes - ever-changin' like clouds or the flow of a river.
Today, I feel frustrated about work. I feel glum about a trip I have to take. I feel behind on deadlines. I feel a lot of my life is poured into a profession I don't care about. I'm tired. I just want to go back to bed.
And all of that is OK.
It won't always feel this way. Yesterday felt really good. Maybe tomorrow will, too.
I'm grateful I'm sober, because today's the kind of day I might otherwise drink myself to oblivion. Instead, I'll take my puppy to her veterinary appointment. I'll pack for my trip. I'll go to the gym and put in what I can for exercise. I'll remember the goodness in my life.
And even though I may not feel very upbeat today, I will be glad to be alive.
Days like this when I was drinking - well, I can't even remember them for the most part. Because I wasn't alive. I was deadening it all.
