Originally Posted by
JL2014 
Everyone sitting around father inlaws deathbed. He started what I think is the death rattle yesterday afternoon. . I'm at home with youngest son. Torture is just torture. I hate for people to suffer.
My plan for not drinking- prayer, learn to play the tape, like y'all are saying ( not sure exactly whT that is),
"Play the tape through" is basically remembering how it ends. We tend to think only of the initial ease and comfort when first taking that drink. We conveniently forget being ill, full of shame for the foolish things we do and say, etc.
I am so sorry to hear about your FiL. Trust that they are keeping him comfortable. Remember, if someone else's suffering was good reason to drink, no one would ever get sober. Hang in there, and stay close to SR.