Patricia, Alcohol takes every ounce of our self-esteem and self-confidence. Dee is right, it takes time to build those things back up, but you are well able, believe in yourself, we all believe in you! Praying for you and will continue!
Just a quick check in for myself, had a wonderful, sober weekend. First time in a long time that I haven't had to battle my every thought to drink. One of our neighbors is moving out and gave us a bottle of tequila and my wife turned them down as did I, but they kept insisting. We just looked at each other and finally, graciously accepted. We promptly threw it in the trash outside as soon as they were gone. Honestly didn't even have a desire to drink this weekend and thank God for that!
Hate to hear so many are struggling, I truly feel for you...we all do, because we've all been there.
All the best!