When I pass a dead animal on the
road, sometimes I hate to really
look to see what it is because it
saddens me to see a little critter
get hurt.
I suppose its the compassionate
part of me that truly cares for them.
As a child, my parents never took
us to the funeral home and pretty
much protected us from seeing a
love one or friend lyeing in that state.
I can vegly remember only a few
people ive seen at a funeral home
in my some 50 yrs.
One of those was a sober AA mentor
and friend way back in my early sobriety.
My sponsor shared with me that I didn't
have to go to the funeral, but in order
to put closure to our friendship that
going to the wake would be nice.
So I did.
Closure to most things is comforting
where it allows me to move forward and
not keep me in question later in life that
maybe I should or shouldn't have done
this or that.
Its been a long time since ive
experienced the lost of a close
family member or friend and I
know one day I will have to make
that all important question as
to what I will do.
In the meantime I continue on my
road of recovery and sobriety asking
my HP - Higher Power for the right
direction in all my affairs. When the
time comes I feel confident that I
will be taken care of in whatever
decisions I choose to make.
I also remind myself that all those
little critters I see in the road are
only the remains, the shell of what
once was and that as soon as they
passed, their little souls entered into
a wonderful place living happily, no
pain and frolicking with many others
like them.
Today, I still try to save all my little
bees who just cant seem to stay out
of the pool as I try to save their little lives.
Remember closure will be part of the
healing process.