Hi Kiki,
I was like that for a long time. It took me 6 years of thinking I was ok. That I could manage it. That I didn't have stories.
In the last six months of my drinking I got all those stories. I kept digging for my rock bottom.
It landed me in a police cell and a psychiatric hospital for a week.
Please don't think you need to have a full repertoire of drunk stories to be an alcoholic. Mine are nothing to be proud of.
I wish I'd been able to get off the ride earlier. I wasn't ready though.