Jeff, I have nothing new either, and others have said so many good things above this post.
One thing is standing out to me. In most of your "I drank but" posts, there has been regret that you went back there. To drinking.
This time there just seems to be regret that alcohol didn't give you what you wanted it to. Until we accept that alcohol gives us nothing that we want, that we have to find "it" elsewhere, we keep going back to the booze to meet our needs.
I'm sick of that crap. I had to learn to look to constructive ways to meet my needs. If you have what you need, you don't need to look for something to change your state of mind, escape, amp up, whatever; you will be free.