Thankyou so much guys, I really appreciate being made to feel welcome back with your group - its a credit to you all that its still going, shows a lot of commitment, and just how much these forums do help people.
I wish I had posted from the start with you all instead of lurking for so long, many many months went by till I felt brave enough to post I think. I suspect if I ever end up being brave enough to go to an AA meeting I will say the say about that as well.