Welcome to the forum, you will find the support you need here to help you, be aware of your addictive voice as that is what gets us, go buy more, play the tape through, if you do where will it lead. The most important question in my mind was I will go to any length to get my booze, will I go to any length to save my life, the answer was simple the work very difficult at first but it gets easier.
Keep reading the posts here, you are among people who understand and can help and support you as we want to see you beat this and you can, remember you are in control.