Welcome to the Forum Illi!!
If you stayed Sober for 30 Days, that shows it can be done, it's what happened at Xmas to escalate things? is what your plan needs to address!!
Until you find a new job, it's gonna be tough, but not undoable, on my drive home from work still there is the same liquor store that I used to stop at every day, it hasn't gone anywhere, it's still there each and every day, that was what my plan had to overcome, but it can be done!!
You can do this!!
