I am glad you're back, Bix!
You really can do this.
My moment of epiphany came one day when I realized that I was in this self-created rut ... going round and round, never getting where I truly wanted to go. I was stalled. Caught in a trap.
How I got there really didn't matter. The mechanics and science of addiction, though intriguing, really didn't matter.
What I had to do was simple: Not pick up another drink, ever.
I needed to give myself a chance at life again. I was cheating myself in many ways. Wasn't allowing myself to grow.
There are many ways to write about the experience. There are many perspectives.
The bottom line was a decision to put down the alcohol, and not pick it up again, under any circumstance. Repeated, again and again.
Then after a while, it became much easier. Today I won't dare to pick it up and risk falling into that rut of inertia.
I never thought I'd enjoy life without a buzz, but there's so much depth to life now. I wouldn't want to go back. And so now, the choice is made for me.
If you are ready for a real change, and are ready to leave the artificial buzz behind, you will be richly rewarded. I believe that! It's happened for me.
