Bix, I found it IMPOSSIBLE to access motivation BEFORE I built a new life.
I had to build a new life while kicking and screaming, gritting my teeth, and giving society the double birds (metaphorically :-)).
In other words, you can't wait until you WANT to create a new life....you just have to grit your teeth and do it.
I'm the total opposite of what I'm typing here.....in all other areas of my life, it goes like this:
1. I get motivated, psyched up, etc.
2. I feel compelled to move forward to complete a task, project, change, goal
No so with sobriety!!
We have to make ourselves create a new life, then the desire will follow.