sourbaby, if we are being honest- here is my take:
I don't always have a problem with THE FIRST DRINK. I can drink socially quite fine, most of the time.
Sounds maybe like you have already decided to drink tonight? I hope I'm wrong.
Here I am at 7 and a half months sober. I am very committed to sobriety. That being said, there is still no way- absolutely no way, that I would go to a party where wine-tasting was the theme.