"What it does, honestly, is about half the time, it opens a door or flips a switch for more behavior. It's like I'm at a fork in the road and drinking puts me on the addict road"
I guess the question is if the wine tasting event has even the remotest possibility of flipping a switch?
We all have different triggers, switches, forks in the road, drinking habits etc.. What unites us here is that we all have a problem. It may come in different degrees, forms, duration whatever. But alcoholism is what it is.
I don't mean to sound mean. But you seem to be in some kind of denial, or confusion, about whether you THINK you have a problem with drink or not.