Originally Posted by
biminiblue 
I obsess when I'm trying to control something.
That texting dance you're doing? I know when I was in hard-core codie mode I would look at the phone twenty times a day waiting for that call or text for him to confirm my feelings or to answer my question or just to give me any attention.
Being addicted to the relationship and to its drama causes that. Detaching is so freeing.
You're absolutely right. I feel out of control in myself so I'm trying to stay one step ahead and assert control over what's going on right now. If I continue to check out phone usage to see if she called the girl yet today, then at least I'll be one step ahead and can plan without being blindsided! Except no, it's not helping me. I can see that this is unhealthy right now. I think I need to go for a walk.