Originally Posted by Fly N Buy

The insidious insanity continued for me until I used that guilt, shame and remorse as motivation. Remarkably - slowly, I now think of how my actions help or hurt others first (mostly).

Didn't want to continue in that painful, selfish cycle forever. No way to live......

Welcome, glad you're posting here - you're in the right place. Most of us have felt like you do at one time friend.