Originally Posted by
snowvelvet 
Hi Enfin and Jemma,
It's difficult when nothing much seems to change. Then you start thinking that you're missing out.
Enfin, I don't know if AA or the steps are for you? I've barely started on them if I'm honest. However, being in a room of people who totally get this helps. I could see my thoughts reflected in everything anyone said. It took me a long while to understand the programme as it were, but the companionship is instant. Currently, the meetings I go to are super busy.
Each session is like individual therapy. I've shared things and seen people nodding back. Things I didn't think anyone else would understand, let alone feel.
I've had counselling before, and I think a month is too long. Each session raises new questions and you need to think and process then, then discuss them next week.
Hi, I think I need something a bit more if it is to work, I feel well hacked off today and am doing down on everything. .. not sure specifically why, maybe it's staying at the inlaws, no space to think...
Don't think I can do aa in my town as I am so well known as a teacher...over such a big area.... I just couldn't face it. My parents are well known too. Hell, when I went to counselling I taught her daughter, which put me off... maybe private help till I get sorted more. Then again some actual people to help might be good. I dunno... it all feels like cr@p anyway now. I dunno what I feel now. How can I have been so pleased with myself, just to let myself down. I should be the one supporting me, not hindering me. It just feels like an endless, pointless struggle.....
Gah... thanks for talking and sorry for just moaning back!