Red,
Welcome.
First off..if you need to see a Dr....do it...no medical advice here...
Now...If you really want to stop....stop. Stay hydrated, eat when you crave...Candy tricks your brain into thinking you are drinking...
I drank about a 2 liters a week...hard stuff. Mostly binged. 3 or 4 days..2 off...3 days...7 off....pretty much for about 15 to 20 years...it was fun for me until my body started to pickle or something...
The hangovers turned into withdrawals.
No stamina, slept like crap, dry eyes...on and on...all bad...
Quit...took about 14 days to get through the physical hell. Then the mental hell...took months...getting better now...but not perfect....but....
I am in great shape...clean...proud...free....free from the poisenous hype...
Becoming a strong oldish man...but....still deal w anxiety...but it has faded into more of an annoyance. When I first quit...it was like I was going to faint....or die...or just start convulsions at any time...it was horrible...
But....I never passed out...collapsed...nothing...it was all mental...
Alcohol fried my brain. I was brain damaged.... It was deep, deep in my central nervous system...
But...now I am better...nobody really ever knew I was freaking out sometimes.
If you want to quit...get ready for hell. But...once you are though it...you never have to go back...if you make it...if you are anything like me...you will never want to drink again...
This is the kind of help you can find here. This story, basically, was what I was told or read about...
The AA Big Book is filled w these stories.
Bottom line...it gets better every day...I started out 1 day at a time...now I am a never drink again...I hate booze. It is a govt. Sanctioned addictive drug. Don't believe the hype.
Merry Xmas.