Congratulations on 429 days!!
I have read your posts (not all). You mentioned relationship, anxiety and work issues.
There is a lot going on. I think you need to see the dr. They can check your meds to switch, increase and/or maybe add a supplement medication.
As far as your thoughts you should talk to your psychiatrist. I know some breathing exercises and mindfullness of the moment have helped me.
I realize many thoughts are preposterous and ludicrous. I think many people have silly thoughts. It depends how much weight you give them. If we dwell on them they will drag us down.
I do know my anxiety and depression have improved much since i have not been drinking.
I wish you the best. Keep your head up. You are moving in the right direction.