I am having a very emotional week. Sucks to be honest. But only if I let it.
You probably know I like to write to sooth myself. Rather than post a new thread I just figured I would share here.
I am rather young to think that so much c r a p has happened in my life that it has left no room for doubt that we come into this world alone and we leave it alone.... Alone.
Do we create loneliness or is it a by product of something unseen in us? An invisible wall where people can see in and I can see out, but light bends somehow where I become invisible the closer one comes to me. That seems to make sense should I choose to accept it.
Drinking and drugs has left a desolate landscape. Like a forest fire that chars it cannot fully destroy. It merely changes. Life lies beneath. It just takes decades to come back. I don't have that kind of time.
I surrender to that which is and be thankful I came out of my stupor when I did. I guess time will tell if it was too late or not. We shall see.