Originally Posted by
endlesspatience 
Thanks. Some helpful comments here. So I went to an AA meeting this evening and in fact it was a Step Meeting so we read the 12 and 12. I just listened. A few of my friends were there.
I think if I'm honest the best new year's plan I can make is actually to work the steps. I've been saying I'm doing them but I'm not really taking them seriously.
That would probably explain why despite regular meetings and coming here, I still drank about 12 times in 2105. Biminiblue is spot on - my ability to moderate sometimes suggests I don't have a terrible problem. But abstinence is so much better for me, really.
I'm the same, I'm not as bad as a lot of alkies, ie I didn't drink huge amounts like some all the time, and I didn't suffer too badly when I stopped. But those 12 times you drank in 2015 are a sure sign that it's just as much a problem, we just drank in a slightly different way.
Abstinence is definitely best for people like us.