So the more I think this over, the more I realise that although I've made a lot of progress, I'm still not really accepting that first step that I'm powerless over alcohol. And the reason I keep my sponsor at arm's length over the step work is because I don't really want to stop the booze, or at least a part of me doesn't. Otherwise, why would I do this relapsing once a month and then try to pretend it hasn't happened or it doesn't matter?
I am quite certain the best next "step" at this point is to go to a meeting and share this situation. I have some meetings lined up already. Fortunately my family is very supportive and I don't expect to be faced with any drinking situations over the Christmas break.