Originally Posted by
Sadie1 
Every year I wish I could spend a Christmas elsewhere to be honest. I get very depressed while there.
Seems like you have already answered your own question.
I wonder how your mother would take it if you explained your truth... told her that you have chosen sobriety and that in order to honor that choice you need to skip the trip this year. I wonder how your mother would value perhaps having a visit from you another time of year, just one-on-one where you could spend quality time with her. I wonder how much healthier an alternate path that explored these options would be for you and what positive outcomes may result?