Advice- Cancel Holiday trip?
Hi everyone! I would appreciate feedback. I have been dreading the annual Christmas trip. I have not missed one ever due to guilt, even though I am middle aged and have to fly there, take time off, etc. Every year I wish I could spend a Christmas elsewhere to be honest. I get very depressed while there.
I am early days and have been fantasizing about drinking during the visit. My mother is elderly and would be devastated if I cancelled. For reasons I won't go into..no one in my very small family know of my drinking, and it would not help me at all to tell them.
I'm undecided whether to go, and hope I can use my tools to remain sober?
Or cancel my trip and upset my mom? Btw, I just visited about 6 weeks ago.
All advice welcome, thanks!