Well next time give someone a call! Those AAers would love to help you out in your time of need. You need to decide for yourself if you are really done with alcohol. For me I had to get HONEST with myself and SURRENDER. Alcoholics can only drink one way...uncontrollably. I cannot moderate so what's the point in drinking if I'm going to drink til I make a fool of myself and pass out. I knew that if I picked up that drink I was going to lose once again because I am an alcoholic. Us alcoholics cannot take a drink without craving more. There is no one drink with us. Lastly I had to ACCEPT that I was an alcoholic and now I could begin to live in the solution, and not the problem. It all begins with that first step then you can begin your journey toward a new and wonderful life. Us alkies are different than the average drinker...some people can have a few drinks on a Saturday night. Not me. That Saturday night might turn into the rest of my life.