A few friends who are well-established in their sobriety already?
That isn't you yet--maybe resign and re-join in a year when you also
are strongly established as sober.
Putting yourself at risk to drink is asking for failure--I did it for years.
Until my actions backed my mental choice to put not drinking first,
I always had a reason or situation to have" just one" which pretty much always
backfired.
Did I miss being in my old stomping grounds? Yes
Did I miss my friends and feel lonely and that life was unfair? Yes
Did I wonder what was I going to do with all that former drinking time? Yes
But you know, I started doing fun things like playing guitar and hiking.
I went to yoga classes and met healthy, non-drinking people, and life
not only got good again, but far better than it was before.
It turned out I'd always had that choice, but never really committed to it before.