I just broke up with an abusive boyfriend 1-1/2 months ago he moved out. I am in the house by myself with one of our dogs he has the other dog. Saturday I was listening to a couple videos I recorded when he was being abusive. I am not sure why I was listening to them because it just made me cry and it makes me sad. I loved him a lot but he is a heavy drinker. I started drinking right before I met him 3 years ago, then it all went downhill from there.