Secretchord, please don't take this the wrong way. It's meant with great respect and compassion. When you first came here I didn't think you were going to make it. You seemed to fight the idea that you could have a problem with alcohol. Maybe it was because I saw a lot of you in me. I also went many years thinking my problem really wasn't that bad. Anyway, I'm really happy to see how far you've come and wish you all the best in your recovery journey. Keep up the great work!