I can relate to this. Most people who don't know me well, or first meet me always think I've got my **** together. Although my loved ones know what I'm up to. They know I don't come home for days at a time. They know I was unfaithful in my marriage. They know I would steel my sons adderall to function in the mornings. It's only gotten worse and worse. 5 years ago I was just like you, I didn't do all the things other alcoholics did so I thought I was "fine" even though I didn't feel "fine"
It's only gotten worse and worse and worse. Its made me an even better liar, I've learned how to sneak whatever I can to keep the loved ones blind. all untill the **** hits the fan... then I'm left to clean up the mess.
I've tried to quit many times, this time is different, it's sounds cliche, but I mean it.
our sober dates are so close! CONGRATS!
10-28-15