Thanks for this, secretchord (love Leonard Cohen, btw).
I can really relate to this--nothing forced me to stop drinking. I was "fine" and could continue to be "fine" if I kept going.
But I want more than "fine." I want more than nagging anxiety Monday through Thursday as I withdrew from my lost weekends. I want more than feeling myself slip from pleasantly buzzed to trying not to slur my words.
I need to keep reminding myself of this because lately I have a few thoughts of "oh, well, this 90 day experiment is going really well! But it is still just an experiment."