Feeling bad that I ended up being in the same place again, overdoing it and having a blackout episode. I am not a responsible drinker. I push the limits. I don't feel well today...hungover, feeling remorse. You would think I would just be able to stop overdoing it. It makes me feel so bad physically and emotionally. Somehow I forget and end up slipping. I have been trying to overcome this for a couple of years now. I guess I never really committed to stopping. After an episode I do but then as time passes I start thinking I can moderate and I do that for a while but then lose it. I really want my life to be better.