I'm having headaches too. Skipped my work party. Not because of alcohol but didn't want to go without my OH, who is traveling back from his father's funeral.
I spent the day cleaning and hanging out with my little guy. I did have some fleeting thoughts of drinking...day off, nothing to do really, winter storm going on outside, cozy in my home. Why would alcohol make this better?? That's my AV for you!
Thanks everyone for this group. You are all great. I read all your posts and have many of the same feelings...depression, indecision, anger. This too shall pass.