For many years I attempted degrees of staying drunk. Finally, I committed to a multi front attack on my alcoholism which has gotten me into a second year thus far. Today, I am not good at any degrees of staying drunk = zero.
Job or no job, wife or no wife, house or no house - it all started with clarity of thought that only sobriety could give me. Today I won' t say that all my problems are solved, or that economically things a boon - but, in recovery I stand a greater chance of peace dealing with the reality of my circumstances and not some convoluted, booze infused anxiety ridden - fear driven daily existence = painful.
Emotion sobriety takes time - I had two choices; sit in the muck - or keep trying.
Glad you're here with us - welcome