I'm back. I went to a yoga class and again was the only student. It was exactly what I needed. When I got home, the sheer absolute mess didn't bother me. Only 3 days left of the weekend. Sad.
Soberp, I'm sorry you aren't getting more support from your husband. It doesn't sound like he's comfortable with emotions or fear. Hang in there. You're very strong to take this step for yourself.
Son still up. Going to wrestle him back into bed.