Sad, you know my position on this, so I'll not repeat it again. Look back at your old threads where I posted.
I'll only add this. I keep seeing you post in other people's threads cautionary posts about how they "shouldn't be like you" and how bad your life has become.
Well, know what? YOU shouldn't "be like you" in terms of what you continue to tolerate. I know it's much easier to see the mistakes others make than to address the ones you are making, yourself--trust me on that one. I don't always follow my own advice. But seriously--you have been miserable for a long time. Your husband is an abusive drunk who has shown zero effort or interest in changing. The only one with the power to change your life is YOU.