Mixed feelings.....is this normal??????
Hi everyone, would love some advice on this.........over the past few days im feeling anxious about xmas, its going to be the 1st booze free 1 ive done since my teens (unless ive been working) its only been 8 wks since my last drink so im still very early in recovery. I KNOW this is the right choice to live a sober life but im worried ill miss the boozy buzz of xmas, especially when im getting our big xmas dinner ready. It will feel alien to me to cook that sort of meal with no red wine in hand melting away the anxieties. I hate my AV!!!!! I don't think ill drink as i cant get away with it (partner is dead against me drinking again & he is so happy im sober) plus even if i could get away with it, ID KNOW & the guilt would be palpable. I should be bloody grateful that ive got 2 lovely little boys who r super excited about xmas & that should b enough of a buzz.....but its not & thats awful of me to feel like that!!!! Arghhhhh!!!!!