recovery
I last drank alcohol on october 18th. I've joined an alcohol recovery unit, and that has helped. Thing is, I know I will be in recovery for the rest of my life. In fact, I hope I am, because I never want to go back to the misery and desolation of drinking. I can never be a moderate drinker, as one glass will lead to however many days I can afford after that. I've kidded myself in the past, reasoning that it's a way to relax, or take my mind off my worries, when the reality is I just drink until I'm unconscious, and when I wake up, the first thing I need is a drink. I'm trying to learn the skills and strategies I need to stay off it. As for now, it's mainly fear of the consequences of drinking. But I'll do whatever it takes.