Antabuse is the only thing that has allowed me to have any long sober stretches. It is the only thing that has worked at all for me. I did have to work really hard to find a doctor to prescribe it, so in that regard I had the same experience as you did. I hope not to have to go without it, however the doctor that prescribed it for me is retiring and I hope I can find someone else to keep prescribing it. It is true that it is dangerous if you drink while taking it, but that's the whole point.