Originally Posted by
wheelingdizzy 
but you cant tell i dont look a mess
i look great cute outfit, always very well put together, 5am i get up to get ready to be at uni. and everyone says how do you manage to look so good?
so i dont even look like ive been drinking the night before.
Hey, you are my hero here. Seriously. No kidding.
I mean - I am still struggling with putting myself together in terms of outfit and the like. And girls who manage to pull it - I sometimes feel like approaching them and asking "What in the world is your secret?"
And it speaks volumes that you keep putting yourself together under circumstances - it shows your self of dignity and willpower. And now it's turn to channel some of it to kicking booze out of your life.
As for:
"so they say if it doesnt effect your life your good?"
Who says? Conventional wisdom? It says a lot of baloney. It effects your life. Big time. It hurts like hell. It's real. It's more than real.
"i mean its not effecting me money wise im doing fine. "
Meaning - you have roof over your head, food on the table, cute outfit? Ok, this level of Maslow pyramid is still fine. But how do YOU feel? Society cliches of how a drunk looks like are not a barometer for your well-being. If you feel need to find escape in wine, chances are you are not doing fine.
"and then i think as its not vodka wine isnt so bad."
Been there, done that. I actually hated vodka - no taste, no smell. Yeek. Wine - that was "another story". Civilized, glamorous. Look at TV shows - main characters seem to have their palms glued to long-legged wine glasses.
When it comes to addiction wine is just as bad as vodka - it just takes longer to get intoxicated and delusions to fall off.
Take care of yourself. Keep posting.