I have run into more people is seedy, nasty French Quarter establishments I knew and was embarrassed for both of us than in meetings.
We are sooo very cautious - except when intoxicated!
Go to meetings, get sober and start to enjoy life again.It is the greatest gift ever! If you see someone you know, ask them How they stay sober and get their phone number - you'll need it.
The alternatives to slight embarrassment are fair worse including jail, hospitalization and death......
Many of us have felt as you do - someone basically said to me what I just typed to you. Someday you'll pass that on, perhaps.