Welcome, atxjoshua. We're so glad you're here with us.
I didn't know how I was going to live without it either. It was part of everything I did - for decades. Yet even though I was afraid to let go, I knew it was killing me. It was also not fun anymore - just something I thought was helping me cope. Instead, it was slowly stealing my soul. You don't need it. Congratulations on Day 2.