welcome.
Those are all normal feelings to have as you embark upon the unknown of sobriety.
I promise you, if you honor this choice and resolve to do a little bit each day to deepen your sobriety and live your life fully - this will be the turning point that opens you to the beauty and wonder of a life you never imagined possible.
Given the past you shared, please consider seeking out a therapist skilled and experienced in trauma. As you begin to return to yourself, the help and support of therapy would be a very powerful asset - both to your sobriety and to growing beyond the wounds of your past in healthy ways.
We're here for you, we understand. You can do it.