thank you all. you have brought me to tears with your kindness. i have a lot to think about. thank you Dee for the link.
last night another friend in AA was drunk, and texted me such horrible things. saying i'm a dry drunk, that i think i'm special because i have mental illness. i know she is hurting. we are all hurting. but i can't be a punchbag.
i'll keep reading and i'll keep my mind open. thank you again.