He seems to have an awareness that he is making bad choices though. Yes he has said he is extremely lost, he has sobbed on my shoulder, he has said he doesn't know what to do and feels frozen and powerless. But he seems to know drugs aren't the answer. He said he needs to get through this phase and then see where he stands. He said "I want to self destruct and face the consequences later. It's what I do. I'm messed up." If he knows that, if he knows he is throwing a wrench in all the goals he has been working toward for years, if he knows he will have consequences to face later, why is he doing this?