Joie12 and tomsteve, thank you both. You're right Joie12, once was more than enough. And I've said many times, never again. Tomsteve, thanks for the laugh! I actually laughed out loud at work when I read your response. Thanks for taking the time to post your comment... it's always interesting to me, to hear the perspective of an addict or a recovering addict in situations like these.
I more or less knew these past few days that I am not going to contact him. But there was about a 10% piece of me that was nagging me to contact him and speak my peace. I knew it wasn't a good idea though. I guess I was seeking confirmation so I can quiet down that 10% doubt for good. I've come such a long way since our break up, and contacting him would be the biggest step backwards I could ever take, possibly in my entire life.