You sound a lot like me. I'm a good person but it feels like I'm missing something. I have always been shy and a loner. I know it's hard and the week-ends are too lonely even for me. I'm in my fifties and still don't quite fit, but there are people who care for us and pray for us. It might not be a perfect life, but I'm starting to care about myself and what I need. I have a long way to go. Have heart, being a good person matters a lot more than "fitting" in. Take care of yourself.